~~ Different...Harder...Complicated ~~

A story about a girl where her love stories will always be a little bit different,harder and complicated compared to her friends or anyone she encountered in her life.. why? no one knows it not even herself because it has always been that way. She has a secret that she keeps it to herself only and only certain people in her life knows it... From time to time, she felts like that one little secret's getting more and more revealed to others... She wonders whether it's a good thing or a bad one.. She hates to open herself up to others especially her hearts.. That hearts of her has been locked up for years and she seem unable to unlock it back... Sometimes, it is bad to close your self from other people but that is one thing that no matter how she try she'll keep doing it.. One day, her secrets was revealed again at two of her friends..not after that her friends also shared their stories to her. When she listened to their stories, she end up thinking that ' why does mine have to be different,harder and complicated? sometimes it doesn't even making sense what i've been through for the past 4 years..' 4 years?? yup,for 4 years she's been having and keeping that little secret.. Does she still doubting her feelings, heart and those 4 years?? people kept asking her whether it's real or just some sort of illusion.. even if she said that it's real, they wouldn't probably believe her..right? I believe that each person in this world have their own stories in a different way right? there isn't a single person in this world shares a same stories because even if there are similarities in it, it will also be a slightly different. And as for this girl, she's still wondering and finding how will her stories be in the future... She may smile,laugh and looks happy on the outside, but no one knows her heart..what she felt inside maybe not the same with what she felt outside... No one can feel what she feels and bear what she bears.. No one in this world will be like her because she is only one in a million in this world.. We'll so how her stories go.. how it will turn out to be in the end and what is going to happen with that little secret of her.. No one know and not even her.. but one thing that she totally know is that she's risking everything and gamble with her own heart and life...