~~ Different...Harder...Complicated ~~

A story about a girl where her love stories will always be a little bit different,harder and complicated compared to her friends or anyone she encountered in her life.. why? no one knows it not even herself because it has always been that way. She has a secret that she keeps it to herself only and only certain people in her life knows it... From time to time, she felts like that one little secret's getting more and more revealed to others... She wonders whether it's a good thing or a bad one.. She hates to open herself up to others especially her hearts.. That hearts of her has been locked up for years and she seem unable to unlock it back... Sometimes, it is bad to close your self from other people but that is one thing that no matter how she try she'll keep doing it.. One day, her secrets was revealed again at two of her friends..not after that her friends also shared their stories to her. When she listened to their stories, she end up thinking that ' why does mine have to be different,harder and complicated? sometimes it doesn't even making sense what i've been through for the past 4 years..' 4 years?? yup,for 4 years she's been having and keeping that little secret.. Does she still doubting her feelings, heart and those 4 years?? people kept asking her whether it's real or just some sort of illusion.. even if she said that it's real, they wouldn't probably believe her..right? I believe that each person in this world have their own stories in a different way right? there isn't a single person in this world shares a same stories because even if there are similarities in it, it will also be a slightly different. And as for this girl, she's still wondering and finding how will her stories be in the future... She may smile,laugh and looks happy on the outside, but no one knows her heart..what she felt inside maybe not the same with what she felt outside... No one can feel what she feels and bear what she bears.. No one in this world will be like her because she is only one in a million in this world.. We'll so how her stories go.. how it will turn out to be in the end and what is going to happen with that little secret of her.. No one know and not even her.. but one thing that she totally know is that she's risking everything and gamble with her own heart and life...

Movie night Tonight :)

i'm sure you guys know about the so called most scary movie for this year " The Conjuring "... well i don't know yet whether it's true or not so that's why tonight me and the girls are going to watch it together... I heard the rating was great.. when i first saw the trailer, i've already felt the chilled feeling so I wonder how will it be once i watch the whole movie.

~ Western Sky ~ 서쪽 하늘 ~

So there was one day while i was surfing the internet and watching you tube i accidentally heard this song "Western Sky-Lee seung chul"... When the first time i listen to this song, somehow the melody and lyrics really touched me.. It is a beautiful song though i hope it wouldn't happen to me one day.. I don't know why but whenever i listen to this song, my mind seems to be a little distracted. There's someone that will suddenly pop into my mind and i can't seem to forget about it.... I seriously hate this because i couldn't stop it... Both of them are really two different person and personality. I am not confused or faltered, it's just  gahhh i don't know what is wrong with me really.. =__=

서쪽 하늘로 노을은 지고

이젠 슬픔이 되버린 그대를

다시 부를 수 없을 것 같아

또 한번 불러보네

소리쳐 불러도 늘 허공에

부서져 돌아오는 너의 이름

이젠 더 견딜 힘조차 없게

날 버려두고 가지

사랑하는 날 떠나가는 날

하늘도 슬퍼서 울어준 날

빗속에 떠날 나였음을

넌 알고 있는듯이


비가오는 날엔 난 항상 널 그리워 해

언젠간 널 다시 만나는 그 날을 기다리며

비내린 하늘은 왜그리 날 슬프게 해

흩어진 내 눈물로 널 잊고 싶은데


가고싶어 널 보고싶어 꼭 찾고 싶었어

하지만 너의 모습은 아직도 그 자리에


하지만 난 널 사랑해

   [tran]


The red glow dims in the western sky

You’ve turned into sadness

I don’t think I could ever call you again

So I call you again now

No matter how I shout and cry for you

All I get back from the empty space is your broken name

I don’t have the strength to go on anymore

Because you leave me

The days of love, the day you left me

The day the sky was so sad it cried for me

It’s as if you already knew

That I would leave with the rain


On rainy days, I always miss you

I await the day that we’ll meet again

Why does the sky make me so sad after it rains?

I want to erase you with my tears



I want to go, I want to see you, I want to find you

But you’re still there


But I love you

*dusty dusty* Hello Me *shine shine* Happy Eid :)

phewww..it's getting rusty here. Hahaha wonder when was the last time i update this blog. Well, it's okay, if i'm not super busy and got some time i'll try to update it... So, last week was Hari Raya and i celebrate it with my family along with my Big family..haha.. I was a bit sad because i didn't get a chance to eat the home-made ketupat and my mom's rendang because i was so busy that day serving and preparing myself to go ' beraya' at other relatives house...So, yeahh *sob sob sob*. Other than celebrating Hari Raya, there's nothing much that happened.. Well at first i thought only UIA gave us short break for the Hari Raya but the other University also did the same...So here i am celebrating the 5th day of Eid at the hostel with my assignments and lappy...sad sad sad.. :(  This weekend my uncle invite to his open house. I'm not sure whether all my cousins are going to be there or not because some of them are studying far away from here..We'll just see how it goes this weekend... :)