~ Best Quotes 1 ~

These are all the motivational quotes that i found interesting and inspire me. somehow it reflects my own thoughts and feelings :)

This one is my favorite. 

keep on smiling even though it's hard for you in life

You'll taste the sweets of happiness along the journey to your destination

we need to find the spark in our life. Make our life be more exciting :)

There's always a way for us. If one door closed, then another will be open.

This is random ME ^.^

well, i don't know what's the right tittle for this post since i don't have any idea right now, so i'll just proceed with this title hahaha. Hurmm, oh yeah i just update my SoundCloud so yeah i hope you guys enjoy it. I don't know why but lately my sleep pattern has become a bit disorganized. I always sleep late which i really hate it and i am seriously bored here don't know what to do. Well, i've started to continue my language lessons and apparently i'm learning French and Korean. Hahaha i've been thinking on taking Japanese after this but one thing i'm sure is that i'll have to take Mandarin class once i'm at the main campus.

Oh yea, about the family vacation next week, it seems like we have to cancelled it due to the rainy weather so yeah no vacation for now *sob sob sob* T.T . Well never mind that, As long as i'm with my family, it's already looks a vacation for me :) .  Yeah, we're in a good condition now. I mean after the talk that i had that night, things get difficult and awkward for me to handle, we rarely talk like we normally use to and it feels like we're strangers to each other. But now, things have return to normal just the way it used to be :) . 

Second week of 3 months break :)

Hurmm I'm starting to feel bored. I don't know what else to do, well of course apart of doing chores. Other than that i'll be reading and do more reading and reading..huhh pity right ~.~  . I also start cooking new things like today i make my own new recipe ^.^ I'm glad my sibs love it. Mom has already ask to save some for her :) I should start doing my preparations for my degree. Yep, many things to apply and still got a trip to handle to and also gotta prepare my luggage for the family vacation next week.. Yeayy seriously can't wait to have that :)

~ Coincidence or Fate?? ~

Oh my, i really can't believe this..hahaha it's like he's answering back all the questions that i have in my mind and heart... Don't change?? He's telling not to have a change of heart. When i think about it again i really wonder whether all of these are only just a little coincidences in life but then again there are no such a thing like coincidence.. Every single thing that happened and might happen in the future has already been written. Then, it means that he's not just a coincidence right? haha . I really hope that he's also going through the same thing just like me here. Even though we're apart for now, i just hope that one day we'll be able to be with each other. :)

Somehow i'll have to admit that i still feel insecure. Why? i just don't know that. The feeling of being scared is still there inside me. I wish i could just get rid of it but it's not that easy to do so. I'll always feel insecure if there are no certainty about all of these thing.. and one thing that i really hate about is being afraid. afraid with my ownself, my own heart and being afraid with all of these...

~ Tale As Old As Time ~

Tale as old as time 

True as it can be

Barely even friends

Then some body bends

Unexpectedly

Just a little change

Small to say the least

Both a little scared

Neither one prepared

Beauty and the beast

Ever just the same

Ever a surprise

Ever as before 

Ever just as sure

As the sun will rise

Tale as old as time 

Tune as old as song

Bitter sweet and strange 

Finding you can change

Learning you were wrong

Certain as the sun 

Rising in the east

Tale as old as time

Song as old as rhyme

Beauty and the beast 

Beauty & the Beast :)

Well i just finish watching Disney's Beauty and the Beast and let me tell you this " screwed up prince charming ". " beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder", i love that quote. It's true, people see and view things differently and even their taste are also different. Don't judge a person based their appearance, but look into their hearts and personalities. some might say that " when you are pretty, you are pretty, and when you are ugly, you are ugly then". Who are we to judge what real beauty is. right? So, to me just be grateful with whoever you are and what ever you have because you are perfect and beautiful in your own way :) . I'll take one line from Bon Jovi song's Welcome to wherever you are " remember that you are perfect, God makes no mistakes" :)

I would say that among all those fairy tale stories, Beauty and the Beast is my favorite :) . Because even i don't want to be like Cinderella wishing for her prince charming to come, like Rapunzel waiting to be rescued by her prince charming and like Sleeping Beauty waiting to be kissed by her prince. No, I want to have my own fairy tale story where no one can predict how it will end. My story will be the most adventurous one and no one would even get to predict it to happen. hahaha being all dreamy again. Well you see M.S.C.P is no prince charming and "the most perfect guy" for me, but hey like i said i need no prince charming and good looking guy in my life. For now let's just say that i am grateful that i have M.S.C.P and i wouldn't want to change that for any matter in the future. Personally, i'd say that it's better if you have a story like Belle and the Beast rather than like Cinderella and prince. When you just accept someone for who he really is whether it's bad or good and you're being sincere with your heart, trust me that God will also be sincere with you, then you will finally feel the beauty itself within your heart and trust me that it's worth it :)

Stay the same just like how it meant to be ^.^

I change my background music to Taylor Swift- Enchanted.. Goshh i really love this song. I love the music and its lyrics. Enchanted, that's what i always felt about M.S.C.P ^.^ . Goshh i really miss that person right now at this very moment. Some might think whether he's real or not..haha of course he's real..Only people i trust knew who is this M.S.C.P person :) . Secretive? hahaha why am i being so secretive. well, it's just that i hate to boasting around and showing off to others about the guy that i love. I prefer some privacy in that. Maybe just maybe someday, I'll tell everyone about him. :). I've done some thinking last night and i've already decide to just stick with what i have now. I don't need new people inside my life. Just him is enough for me. Well too bad that my heart is so stubborn till it wouldn't want to accept anyone else .. gahh silly heart. I know that i'll be facing more storms in the future, but i'll stay strong and would never give up with what i had now and strive for more in the future. I just want to tell M.S.C.P this ;

              " please don't be in love with someone else, please don't have somebody waiting on you "

I know that i will have to forcing my laugh and faking my smile more in the future but just know that i will always be enchanted to meet you someday. I'll wait for that day 오빠, so you better start making your way here :)

Last last last paper for this semester ^.^

Hehehehe finally i've finished both papers for Writing Skill and Intro to Comm :) .  Huhh so this week will officially be my last week being at CFS :(  I want to savored each seconds while i'm still here being able to sleep on this bed. hahaha dramatic isn't it. Well i'm not sure when will i be coming here again. So for this semester i could say that i'm proud with my own self especially when i've seen my carry marks for both subjects.. I can say that there's a lot of improvement i made for this sem :) . Next year, when i'm at the main campus will be a fresh new start for me. That time i will focus more on my study no more playing around. Well i'll just stick with my own style of study. I'll perform better in class, more confident in myself, dare to take a risk, grab all the opportunity in front me, and just be myself :) Being here at the CFS makes me learn a lot of things in life. Don't hold your back and future for others, this is your life and you're the only one that need to fight for it. So what if they leave you out, just continue without them. It's not like you're dying if you're alone, as long as God is with you, just know that you will be just fine :) . Sometimes there are times when you need to prioritize yourself more than other people in your life. So, i'll strive more next year. aja aja FIGHTING!! ^.^

2nd October 2018 ^.^

Heee today i feel a bit relieved because all of the assignments have been submitted. Finally i was free and i can focus for the examination. Yesterday i have sit for Arabic test and the questions are okay. At least i managed to answered it and i don't mind how much i will get for the marks as long as i exit  the Arabic subject. So to considered that this will be my last days here at the CFS, i do feel a bit nostalgic with the all the memories here :) . I'll surely miss this place. Maybe, Insyaallah i'll visit here during the short semester. But, i truly need to prepare myself for a new life at the main campus later. Excited yet nervous to be at the main campus, learn new languages and many other subjects that i need to complete for my degree :) . Hopefully, everything will be just fine and i am surely anticipated to see what my life will be in the future and where will fate bring me :)